Sunday, May 20, 2018

Sunday Musings - Not Crushed

It's been a long three weeks since I posted here on my blog: weeks that I've spent struggling emotionally, physically, and spiritually, just focusing on one day at a time. When my Mama was re-admitted to the hospital several weeks ago, my emotions spiraled from despair to anger to deep sadness at the way mental illness has affected my family over the years. Dealing with the family dynamics while working to cancel my upcoming classes (contacting participants, issuing refunds, notifying event coordinators, finding a replacement teacher, etc) has left me emotionally and physically exhausted.

Unfortunately, it's during times like these that I feel like the Lord is so very far away. In my mind, of course, I know that He never leaves me, but I begin to question my worth, my calling, and my ability to encourage others. I just feel so beat down!

Yet, 2 Corinthians 4:7-12 reminds me that because of God's power, I may be "hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed...struck down, but not destroyed."

So, I've stepped back from much of the busyness right now, taking time to process all these emotions and to rest physically and to allow the Lord to fill me with His peace.

(Please accept my apologies for not getting around to comment on your blogs. I'll be back soon! In the meantime, if I've missed something you know I'll want to read, please email me or leave a comment below.)